Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Some days I feel better then others, but for the most part, my whole body is just sore and tired. Jeff had to completely get me ready for work this morning by dressing me, cooking me breakfast, getting my stuff & lunch together, and dropping me off at work. This morning I was having a hard time. Hopefully things will get easier or I will go into labor really soon!
I think the worst part is anticipating everything. I'm nervous about the birth and scared about everything that could go wrong but Jeff has made the good point that worrying doesn't help anything and just being relaxed is the best thing I can do for myself now. As much as I'm NOT looking forward to the actual birth, I can't stop thinking about our lives after our little princess is finally here. I'm looking forward to being away from work and getting to spend 100% of my time and energy on my family. I know it'll be crazy and frustrating but I really can't wait.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
I'm having more and more trouble walking. It's the weirdest feeling. I guess she's just so low that it's putting so much pressure on my pelvis and it's really uncomfortable to walk... or even sit actually. The only time I'm really comfortable is when I'm laying down. It's only a matter of time now... I'm super excited!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
I don't want to sound like a wimp but I honestly thought I might be getting close to labor yesterday, that's how painful these things are! They were also happening regularly about every hour. I realize you should feel contractions over your whole stomach and not just the one part but I felt like they were way too painful to be nothing. Maybe it's just hopeful thinking!
Jeff & I went grocery shopping yesterday to stock up on everything we're going to need. I think this weekend I'm also going to make some meals to freeze & store so we don't starve those first couple days. Jeff & I also got a DVD called Baby's First Days or something. It came for free with something so I thought it would be totally stupid but we started watching it last night and it has lots of good tips! We put it in late last night expecting to watch 5 minutes and turn it off but after the first 2 sections I realized how good it is. We were both exhausted though so we'll have to finish watching it tonight.
I also got my breast pump. I bought the avent isis duo. That also came with a DVD to learn how to use it which I watched. All the pieces were kind of intimidating until I watched the DVD but now I'm just excited to use it. I'm sure the biggest problem for me will be making sure I get enough food, sleep, and of course stop stressing so that I don't have milk supply problems.
We still have quite a few more things on our baby to do list then I would like, but hopefully that will change after this weekend. Jeff is going to a car seat inspection place today to get the car seat properly installed and make sure there are no problems. That's probably the biggest thing left. But we also have to pack a hospital bag, clean some items that we got used including her tub, finish putting her stuff away so her room isn't a mess, open up/set up/put batteries in all the stuff, BUY the batteries to put in all the stuff, put sheets on the pack n play, co-sleeper, & crib, etc... ugh, overwhelming! Jeff's mom came down last Saturday to help with a bunch of stuff and she offered again this Saturday so we'll probably take her up on that. She cleans way better then Jeff :)
P.S. I have stretch marks and I'm not happy about it...
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I have definitely felt her drop and while it sucks that I have all this pelvic pressure, it's kind of nice to be able to breath a little better. I guess since she's lower she's away from my ribs. I feel like she's been doing gymnastics most of the time in there. Her kicks are getting SO strong and when she kicks me in certain spots, they really hurt! It's so awesome to just lay down and watch my belly move around. We can see her little body parts poke out. Jeff is getting much more excited lately and I'm getting much more needy. I don't ever want to be alone and I feel like I'm always asking Jeff for different things because I always need something!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
I asked him if I needed to make a birth plan or anything and he told me not to. I thought it was kind of weird that all these women had birth plans telling the doctor what to do. I mean, I'm not a doctor so I won't be trying to tell him how to do his job. I'm sure he can do it much better then me. He said that a lot of times women make up these crazy birth plans and are then upset when everything doesn't go perfectly to their plan. This really isn't something I can plan so I'm thinking I'll just go with the flow and do things how my baby girl wants to do them. I did make sure to ask him if it would be possible to keep the baby with me directly after the birth to breastfeed right away. I heard that's beneficial. He said he recommends that unless there's problems with me or the baby, then we might need to be separated. He did a strep test and gave me a thing to go get more blood work done. It's never ending!
Our focus now is figuring out which car seat we want to use and installing it so we can bring it to have it checked ahead of time. If it's not an approved car seat of it's not installed correctly they don't let you take your baby home and I don't want any surprises that day, so we need to do that ahead of time. We also still need a pediatrician. It's not like I have crazy/demanding criteria or anything but I just haven't gotten a good enough vibe at any of the offices I've looked into. Plus I have to make sure they have all the important stuff, like accept my insuranse and are affiliated with the hospital I'm delivering at. It might be awhile before we settle on one...
I've been good. I haven't really had any crazy pregnancy cravings until now, but they are officially here. I've been waking Jeff up in the middle of the night for crazy food combinations. He's been lucky until now because I haven't bothered him much in the middle of the night except for when I was feeling sick. I'm getting super anxious for her to be born. I sit in the glider in her room a lot and just look around at all her stuff. I know I should be enjoying the quiet time but I'm really just excited about all of it. It's a little scary, but I know that with everything Jeff & I have been through, we will be there for each other through every crazy newborn night!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
My fingers are a little swollen and I drop nearly 50% of what I pick up. My feet are REALLY swollen so I can't stand up for long periods of time and it has made my toes look really big & gross. The only kind of exersize I can really do anymore is swimming. BUT it's all a small price to pay to be able to enjoy food again and sleep longer then an hour at a time. Best of all - I'm feeling the baby move stronger & stronger. I see my belly move and all of her cute little body parts sticking out. I actually feel like I'm already bonding with her and she isn't even born yet. The third trimester is incredible!
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Jeff & I went to the hospital. He took a urine sample, monitored the baby with this machine that wrapped around my belly, and then we had an ultrasound. Everything looked normal and he wasn't concerned about anything so we got sent home at midnight. I was 4.5 cm dialated. The doctor blamed stress. I just read this on the internet:
"Studies have found an association between high levels of stress and preterm birth. The theory is that severe stress can lead to the release of hormones that can trigger uterine contractions and preterm labor."
The baby is 4 lbs 11 oz - getting huge! She looked so squished in my belly on the ultrasound. I am relieved that everything is OK and I'm glad I went even though everything seemed fine because I know I would have worried myself silly all night long. I still woke up in the middle of the night and used the prenatal listener we bought to listen to her for a little while to make myself feel better. Now I'm exhausted and probably have a rough day ahead of me...
Friday, August 14, 2009
My back is doing much better now that I'm seeing the chiropractor so that's a relief. I've been craving nothing but hot wings and chocolate milk lately which is absurd because I don't even like milk, I haven't been able to eat chicken the whole pregnancy, and the two really shouldn't go together... but I've finally mastered making my own hot wings. And by making, I mean putting hot sauce on frozen wings & putting them in the oven. They are awesome though. I've already gone through about 3 bags of the costco frozen chicken wings and I'm averaging about 2.5 gallons of milk a week... it's a little insane.
Right now I'm also in breast pump hell. I thought I was all set with the one I picked out until Jeff & I went to a breastfeeding/breastpumping workshop last weekend. I've spent an incredible amount of time looking at comparisons between the Medela Pump In Style and the Avent Isis iQ Duo. The more reviews I read, the more confused I get, and the more I confuse Jeff talking about it. I originally thought I wanted the avent, ESPECIALLY because I've already decided to use avent bottles, which only makes it more convienent. But the woman at the breastfeeding workshop was a Medela advocate and got me second guessing myself. Now I just don't ever know how I'm going to decide between the two...
Thursday, August 6, 2009
The crib was delivered on Tuesday and we set it up and it looks BEAUTIFUL! The nursery is complete. We got 2 gift cards at the baby shower that we will be using for decorations this weekend to add some pink to her room. We're still working on putting everything away but there's no way that we have enough room for everything we have. We might need to pick up some extra storage-type-organizer-things this weekend also.
Yesterday was rough. I woke up and got up to go to the bathroom and fell to the floor. I totally wasn't expecting the back pain. I couldn't even walk or put any kind of pressure on my left leg. I tried to not make a big deal out of it because I knew Jeff had an exam yesterday but quickly realized I couldn't do that. I couldn't even get out of bed. Jeff called the pregnancy chiropractor and even though his office was closed yesterday, he came in for an appointment with me. I'm a very lucky girl! We had to wait until 10:00 for his to get there though so Jeff also called our regular doctor and asked what he could do for me in the meantime. I told him I'd drive him to class and go to the chiropractor by myself but he wouldn't let me. He stayed right by my side the whole time. What an amazing man. He called his school and arranged to make up the class and the exam that afternoon, which worked out perfect. He took care of everything while I layed in bed.
The chiropractor told me that my sciatic nerve was severely inflamed on the left side - and also some other stuff that I didn't understand and don't remember. This is about the time that I remembered I hurt my lower back in track a few years back. He said that since the area was already weak from that, this pregnancy was really affecting that area. He did A LOT of adjusting and even showed Jeff the trigger points that he could massage that would help me and showed him how to do it. Since Jeff is going to school for massage thearapy right now he really enjoyed that. Our appointment took forever between the amount of stuff he did and the amount of talking he did with Jeff. I walked out in worse shape then I went in with Jeff practically carrying me but started to feel better gradually throughout the day. Today I'm limping, but at least I can put some pressure on my left leg. I think it's strange that it's only my left side that hurts, but I guess that's the side that I injured. I have another chiropractor appointment Saturday morning. Hopefully this pain won't last until she's born because it's pretty unbearable!
Friday, July 31, 2009
BUT I measured perfectly, her heartbeat is beautiful, and all is well with our little girl. She wouldn't stop moving when the doctor was trying to measure my belly and he laughed & asked if she's always that active. I didn't realize she was more active then average but I guess she is. That's our girl :)
I've been stalking the tracking page ever since I got the tracking number for the crib. The estimated delivery is August 4th which I'm sure won't change so I don't know why I keep going to the tracking page like it's going to hurry up the delivery. So after the baby shower this weekend and the crib delivery on Tuesday all of her necessary items will be in place and then Jeff & I can just go shopping for fun stuff! I'm certainly looking forward to that :)
Friday, July 24, 2009
On the other hand I'm getting super anxious. Throughout the pregnancy I've made a lot of pregnant friends and they are starting to give birth since most of them are ahead of me pregnancy-wise. I've been listening to their end of pregnancy struggles / birth stories and it just makes me very anxious to be where they are. I realize we aren't ready for our little girl quite yet, but it doesn't stop from making me want to meet her.
Jeff's mom also got us an iCrib which I didn't even know they made but it's AWESOME:
You can connect your ipod in the back of it and hang it on the crib. That little white thing on top is also a night light. So now I've got to put together an awesome baby playlist and load in on my ipod shuffle for her so it's all ready to sooth her to sleep :)
Monday, July 13, 2009
When I got to work today 2 people mentioned that it looked like I had a belly growth spurt this weekend. I guess it's hard for me to see the gradual change but sometimes I look down at my stomach and I'm just amazed at how big it is and I have no recollection of it growing. It's pretty weird. I think I felt baby hiccups for the first time the other day which was pretty exciting!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
In more exciting news, the baby shower is officially planned & ready to go for August 2nd. The best part is that I could schedule it for when Shelly will be in NJ so she can be there! The nursery is really coming along too! Jeff & I fixed the entire wall by ourselves and finished spackling the rest of the room. All we have left to do now is pick a color so Jeff can paint the walls since I can't paint while I'm pregnant. It makes me so happy to see her room so close to being ready. The only missing piece after the paint is the crib. I put the crib on the registry. It's a long shot since it's expensive but I figured I'd take a chance since Jeff & I can get 10% off anything left on the registry anyway. The glider does not really match the rest of the furniture but I don't think the baby will mind :)
Monday, June 29, 2009
SO Jeff & I cleared everything out and I got started spackling the stuff I could right away. There were little cracks that I could handle all around the room but I left the one wall alone. We thought about cutting a huge hole at the beams & getting new sheet rock but I decided to leave it for now & think about it. Jeff & I have been getting so independent with home improvements and I feel good about everything we've accomplished. Even though I don't want to I might have to ask my dad to come help with that wall because I don't want to mess with putting up a wall wrong.
We rented a steam carpet cleaner from Home Depot. It was nice to see all those gross stains come right out! The carpet looks brand new again and I'm so glad we did it. Jeff threw the couch out to the curb and I filled up countless garbage bags of junk/clutter. It felt so good to clear out stuff. While all this was going on Jeff was busy moving furniture all over the place out of my way so I could steam clean & I was doing 4 loads of baby laundry! I was way too excited to do my first baby laundry. It really made me realize how clothes crazy I got though. I told Jeff not to let me buy anymore clothes because we really have an insane amount. I steam cleaned the nursery first so it would dry first. Jeff put the nursery furniture in as soon as it dried & I folded & organized everything I washed. It felt so good to be able to put things away in their place instead of just stacking stuff on top of stuff in a temporary spot wherever we could find room. We still have a lot do to but I'm thrilled that we made this huge start.
I have been exceptionally cranky & emotional the whole weekend. I feel bad that Jeff had to deal with me but he did a great job. I can't think of anyone else that would let me bark orders at them all weekend and hold their tongue while I insult them for not doing it "the right way". Then the poor guy had to deal with my meltdowns! It's amazing to me how fast I go from lovable to bitch to crying in the corner lately. Hopefully I can learn to control my feelings a little better and not let Jeff be my punching bag. I want to be able to deal with things the right way for the baby so she won't be around any negativity and I'm sure my hormones will still be all over the place after she's born so I really need to start now!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Then he gave me more bloodwork and another glucose test. I went to Labcorp directly from the appointment to get the tests done so I wouldn't forget about it. So I drank another sugar drink, waited an hour, and then they took all sorts of blood. My arm is pretty bruised this morning from it.
Our little family had a cute moment yesterday when we got into bed. The baby girl was moving around and kicking like crazy which Jeff could feel and then he started kissing my stomach and the baby was kicking his lips. He rested his head on there for awhile and the baby kept kicking him which we got a good laugh out of. It was just a really precious moment to me. I'm sure there's many more moments like that to come :)
I'm looking forward to our romantic getaway in only 2 days! It will be so great to be at such a nice all inclusive resort and just be able to relax for once. We get breakfast in bed, good fancy dinners, pampered at the spa, and a great comfortable room. Then we also have nature trails, a sports arena, pools, hoseback riding, and Jeff can even go water skiing! I've been calling it our babymoon :)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
My bed has a horrible sag which really adds to my back pain and trouble sleeping. We have a better bed downstairs but since it's a king we can't fit it up the stairs to get it in the bedroom. Since I get up to pee so many times at night it's a hard trade off between sleeping in a saggy bed right next to the bathroom or sleeping in a comfortable bed and walking up and down the stairs every time I have to pee. Not to mention I have fallen down the stairs plenty of times which I'm scared of doing while I'm sleepy. Jeff has been dealing with the bed company for a long time now and it seems like there's always one more step to go. Now we are waiting for an inspector to come out and inspect the bed because from my pictures the sag looks like "normal body impressions". So they are pissing me off and I'm pretty much leaving it totally up to Jeff to get it fixed so I don't need to fight with them anymore.
We went to the newborn class on Monday and announced we were having a girl which was exciting. We also picked out A LOT of baby girl clothes. We got home to put them away and realized we had no more space in her furniture for them so we had to start to use hangers. I am getting very anxious for the nursery to be set up and ready. I'm getting way ahead of myself but I want a finished nursery so bad! Next thing is fixing the hole in her wall that the renter put there and getting all the carpets cleaned, though. Jeff already tested 2 different rooms in the house with a lead paint testing kit we got from the hospital and the results came back normal/safe so that was a relief since it's such an old house. But we still have lots to do!
I'm feeling the baby get stronger and stronger. Jeff can even feel the kicks now which is super exciting. At night after I shower and first lay down in bed she moves around a lot so that is when Jeff & I usually lay together & he keeps his hand on my belly. I'm getting to know her schedule and when she's moving around and when she sleeps. I'm really enjoying getting to know her already before she is even born. It's crazy to me that a human is growing inside of me, and I don't ever think I will get over it. I think that no matter what I do, nothing will be able to compare to this. Do I wish this wasn't such a difficult pregnancy? Yes. But the joys far outweigh what I'm going through physically and emotionally.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I'm getting anxious to actually SHOP though. Up until now it's been pretty much all used craigslist stuff and free stuff, but I'm really getting anxious to go out and buy stuff. Everyone is telling me not to because I'm getting so much stuff that nobody will have anything to get me at the baby shower, but I don't think I can wait that long :P
Jeff & I have both been wanting to start the baby's bank account too, but we can't start it until we have the ss#. We picked out the account already, though, so everything is all set :) I guess now we are just getting really anxious, especially me. I want everything to be ready and in place. I want all the home repairs to be done, and the nursery set up. Right now the baby stuff is just everywhere. I want things to have their places and be put away. I guess that's nesting? It's a little soon for that though, lol!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Soon I will have more blood tests and another glucose test. Jeff & I asked all of our questions and got some good information. He showed us how Jeff can help me to do some safe stretches to help my back and hip pain, and recommended a chiropractor who specializes with pregnant women. He said that it's good to get the pain in control now because it's only going to get worse. He also recommended some nearby pediatritians that Jeff & I can start meeting with and gave us some good tips on how to pick the perfect one for our baby :)
Monday, May 18, 2009
The head is still a little too big for the body, which is normal for babies until they reach about month 7. I'm just really glad that we got such a great technician who took the time to really get us some great pictures and videos.
Jeff & I also got her to write the sex of the baby in an envelope and Jeff took it right away which is probably a good thing because I'm sure I would have ripped it open as soon as we got in the car! He hid it from me :P
The baby is getting stronger and stronger. I can feel kicks regularly now without even really focusing on it. Some of them are really strong! We learned that the baby is 1 pound today, which just seems unreal. Jeff really didn't say much during the ultrasound but his feelings were painted on his face with his expression. I wish I got a little bit of video watching him watching the ultrasound!
Nothing else new to report. I'm still mostly miserable and unable to eat but I'm trying not to complain too much now that the baby can hear me :)
Monday, May 11, 2009
Laying on my back makes me instantly nauseous and dizzy, so I can't do that at all anymore. That gives me problems sleeping. Every time I wake up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night I switch which side I'm sleeping on, which helps the hip pain a little, but I'm sure nothing will make it go away!
Onto my next subject... maternity shopping. Maternity shopping might be the single most awful task ever. It's as simple as that. I don't generally shop in the stores that even have maternity clothes (besides old navy, which has decided to get rid of their section just 2 months before I needed it). Then there's the fact that the stores that do offer maternity sections, which are few and far between, seem to think that because you're pregnant you suddenly grow a love for lace trim and bows...
The only positive to this dreadful task is the fact that I seem to bond with other pregnant women in the maternity sections whenever I go. Before getting pregnant, I never cared about meeting new friends while shopping. I was on a mission. But all that's changed now because even though I’ve begged all of my friends to get knocked up, it’s just not happening.
So I have only bought 2 pairs of maternity pants so far and I really only like one pair. Those are my only purchases so far and I alternate them every day! I also have a bunch of casual clothes I bought from a woman on craigslist fpr $20 but they are not too useful besides one pair of jeans. Jeff's friend Hope gave me about 5 maternity shirts last week and I actually like them a lot, so that's a plus. I'm still in definite need of more clothes.
This picture could not be more accurate:
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
I'm still constantly nauseous. I have accepted the fact that I'm just one of the unlucky ones that will have to deal with nausea for the whole 9 months of pregnancy. I still can't sleep at night. Besides the fact that I just can't seem to get comfortable, I've never peed so much in my life.
The good news is that I got more blood test results back yesterday which put the baby at a 1 in 10,000 chance for downs syndrome and completely negative for everything else they tested for. It's a relief to know that the baby is doing well, despite everything.
Sara and I have been having trouble trying to find a place to have the baby shower on such short notice. Hopefully Jeff & I will know for sure when he is leaving for boot camp by the end of today but it is tentatively June 1st, thus the baby shower date was made May 31st. I would feel horrible if we couldn't pull it off and Jeff wasn't able to come to the shower, but at the same time, things aren't looking good.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
I went to the doctor yesterday for the first time without Jeff because he couldn't go at the last minute but he didn't miss too much. I complained to the doctor about being nauseous all the time and went through my whole list of other complaints. Then I got to hear the baby's heart beat with the machine, but no ultrasound. My next appointment on May 19 is the next ultrasound, so we don't have to wait too long.
I had to get more blood work done for a few extra tests and another thyroid check. I feel like the people at LabCorp are going to know me by name pretty soon with how often I'm there! I still haven't felt the baby moving but I'm really anxious for that to happen. I keep reading about what it will feel like to make sure I recognize the feeling.
And finally, baby shower preparations are underway. Jeff will be joining the army reserves and leaving for boot camp. Since he would like to be involved with the baby shower we decided to have it right before he leaves which will probably be at the end of May, but we don't know for sure yet. I was originally thinking it would be in August but luckily my baby shower planner is flexible! Hopefully my belly will get a little bigger in the next month before the shower :P
Friday, April 24, 2009
In other news my belly had a serious growth spurt this week. I will have to start posting belly pictures on here. I was slowly growing out of all my pants but now absolutely none of them fit anymore, even the big ones. Since it's Friday I can wear my maternity jeans, thank goodness, but I need to get pants before Monday. I've been shopping for maternity work pants but haven't found much for prices I want to spend. They are really expensive! I have plenty of casual clothes because I bought another woman's whole lot of used maternity clothes for $20 and they are all casual, but mostly jeans and nothing I can wear to work. I'm lucky I found her on craigslist though because I got so many great clothes for only $20.
Looks like Jeff will get dragged on another shopping trip this weekend for maternity pants. Usually every time we go out we don't end up getting what we went for and find something for the baby instead, so I have to stay on track and find some pants so I'll have something to wear to work on Monday!
According to everyone, I should be starting to feel the baby move any day now which is super exciting. Jeff will have to wait another 3 weeks or so to feel it but I will start feeling movement any time! I know that feeling the baby moving will make me so much less paranoid all the time and it's really a huge step. We also have another doctor appointment / ultrasound scheduled for Monday so stay tuned for a new picture of our little one :)
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
I guess the reason I used the title It's About Time is because of the huge step we made last night. Last night I had the privilege of meeting Jamie's grandparents. The whole situation was not what we were expecting. I thought there would be a lot of critisicm and questions. Her folks actually were not pushy, nosey, or anything negative AND they actually gave some advice and genuinly wanted to get to know me. I wish we had more time with her grandparents and Marylou didn't talk so much. Overall it was a great expierience besides Jamie thinking I'm a caveman and etc. Her grandad is a piece of work and I really look forward to getting to know them better.
I also hope my writing gets a lot better. I thought after last night and the past couple of weeks I would write a journal and not a couple of paragraphs. In closing I really think last night and the past couple of weeks were steps Jamie and I were struggling with our whole relationship. I look forward to the steps, obstacles, and challenges with the mother of my baby and the young woman I am in love with. I'm gonna end this entry before Jamie gets home and before I make a bigger fool out of myself.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
I have been sleeping a little better at night. I'm not waking up so many times to pee and the hip pain seems to be getting a little better. I keep reading online how the second trimester is the easiest though, so I know it will get bad again. I'm trying to enjoy my sleep while I can.
Yesterday morning I woke up very sick for the first time in awhile. Jeff was working an overnight and I woke up at around 6:15AM and could not stop throwing up. After I ate a little breakfast I seemed to start feeling better, but not after I had already made a mess of the toilet and kitchen sink with my throw up! After Jeff got home and slept a few hours he cleaned everything up for me.
I'm still having problems eating, but I think I'm getting the hang of it a little more. I'm still not excersizing, which is starting to really get to me. I really want to get back into it now. I keep telling myself I will take the dog for a walk when I get home but things come up or I start to feel dizzy or nauseous, and it just doesn't happen. I want to really get serious about it, though. If I have to I will go to the gym or take a walk on my lunch break. The benefits of pregnancy excersize are just too good and I just want to make sure I do everything I can.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Then there's my eating problem. No food has taste anymore. No matter what I eat, they pretty much all taste the same. But I'm even more picky about what I eat now. It seems like the different consistencies of foods bother me. I'm eating a lot of cheese - I can eat mac n cheese, pizza, bagel bites... and that's about it. I try to have a sandwich every now and then and sometimes I can suffer through it. Usually I'm ok with eating an egg in the morning for breakfast also, as long as it's over easy and not overcooked. I'm just having such a hard time eating anything!
What worries me the most about this is two things. I'm still not gaining weight because I avoid eating with all these problems. And then when I do eat, it's usually unhealthy, so that's not good for my little baby. I really want to do what's best for my baby but it's so hard now. I'm still *SO* nauseous all the time even though everyone said it would go away by now.
This pregnancy thing is really hard. It's not at all what I expected. I know it's different for every woman, and even every pregnancy, but I never imagined it would be this hard... and to think it's only going to get harder! I'm trying so hard to get back into excersizing. I know how important it is just to walk but by the time I get home everyday all I want to do is get into bed...
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
The doctor also told us a little more about cystic fibrosis and our chances even if Jeff is a carrier as well. It's all a little scary but the doctor didn't seem to be too worried. We finally got everything ready so Jeff will be going for the screening today and we should know next week if he's a carrier or not.
I've been having a lot of problems eating lately. I'm having a serious meat aversion. I can't eat plain meat by itself but if it's hid I can tolerate it. It's not even just meat though. I made myself rice and beans last night and then couldn't eat it. It's weird because it's like the food just lingers in my mouth and I can't swallow it. It's almost like trying to eat rubber. I'm just really worried about trying to keep a healthy diet with all these food problems I've been having. I will just have to try different things and hope I can find something to eat. I've been eating pizza or bagel bites for almost every meal because that is the only thing I can seem to eat easily. Hopefully I'll figure something out!
Monday, March 16, 2009
I have been so nauseous lately. My doctor prescribed pills for it (they were originally $500 thank god for benefits I only paid $10). If it were not for these pills I would not be able to function at all. I'm trying my hardest not to rely on the pills, and I've been good about it. They say I can take 1 every hours but I will only take 1 a day, if at all. I'm nervous about medications even though the doctor said it was OK. I just want to make sure I'm doing what is best for the baby.
Unfortunately, nothing seems to help the nausea. It's horrible every day when I wake up and seems to get better as the day goes on, but "better" is barely manageable. I just keep thinking to myself, the first trimester is almost over, I can get through it!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
But onto the BIG news of the ultrasound. I was super nervous going in because of the blood so I was relived to hear that everything was going great. We actually saw the baby for the first time, since in the last picture we couldn't actually see anything and the biggest surprise was the heartbeat! Words cannot express hearing that little heart beat for the first time. It was incredible. You always see people freak out over it and wonder why, well now I realize! That little heartbeat represents the life of my baby. It's all still so amazing to me. I'm really just trying to enjoy every little part of this pregnancy.
It's still so early that not much has even happened yet. I can't wait for all the little surprises and miracles that will come our way. My priorities have really begun to shift and in some ways I really believe my whole way of thinking has changed. I know I might complain in here about being emotional, tired, and nauseous, but all of that doesn't change the fact that all of this is so magical to me.
Jeff & I started going to a newborn care class on Monday. The first class wasn't all that impressive but she promised they get better. I'm so excited to learn and grow with Jeff & our new family. As much as I can't wait to meet our little baby, I want to make sure I enjoy the pregnancy!
Monday, February 23, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Then I layed awake upstairs until 4:30AM when Jeff came up and asked me if I was alright. He thought I just got up to go to the bathroom and was puzzled when I didn't come back. He sat up with me for a little while and asked me if there was anything I needed. At this point since I'd been up so long I was getting hungry/nauseous. He went down and got me some saltine crackers and a bottle of water. He talked to me while I ate and when I was done I told him to go back downstairs to bed so maybe I could get some sleep. I eventually fell asleep again but I don't know what time it was and when my alarm clock went off this morning for work I felt like absolute crap.
I should be getting MORE sleep now that I''m pregnant but I'm getting much less. Not all nights are as bad as this one but I wake up at least twice a night and can't sleep straight through the night anymore. It's so frustrating because it makes me so tired and extra cranky all the time!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
I'm glad I have him to take control of things right now... big and little, because for some reason I just can't handle things well. It's crazy to me that I would cry over not having $20 when there was an ATM in the Quick Check next door. I guess I'm just lucky that I have Jeff, because I'd be sobbing in the corner all the time if it wasn't for him!
After we were done at the appointment we had to go to the front desk and everyone asked to see the ultrasound picture. Then Jeff said, "The baby already looks black," which made everyone in the room laugh! It's good to have his wonderful sense of humor around, especially right now :)
Also, yesterday the doctor advised that I stop taking ultimate aloe every morning. I started taking it before I even knew I was pregnant just to settle my normally upset stomach. I guess it was doing a good job because I felt very sick this morning. I can deal with feeling sick as long as it's best for the baby though. He didn't say it was proven bad he said that he doesn't recommend anything that hasn't been proven safe for pregnant women. So I'm a little nauseous today and I didn't sleep great last night but I will survive, because in 8 short months we will have a new baby and it will all be worth it!