Ultrasound & Heartbeat!

Monday was a pretty epic day for us, despite the way it started. My morning sickness kicked into FULL gear starting around midnight on Monday. I was eating crackers in bed at all hours of the morning. It is definitely the worst yet. It really hasn't subsided since then. I've been pretty miserable the last two days/nights. I went to costco to buy bulk crackers and I'm going to keep them right by my bed. I need to do some research on what else helps the nausea also, because I'm pretty miserable with it.

But onto the BIG news of the ultrasound. I was super nervous going in because of the blood so I was relived to hear that everything was going great. We actually saw the baby for the first time, since in the last picture we couldn't actually see anything and the biggest surprise was the heartbeat! Words cannot express hearing that little heart beat for the first time. It was incredible. You always see people freak out over it and wonder why, well now I realize! That little heartbeat represents the life of my baby. It's all still so amazing to me. I'm really just trying to enjoy every little part of this pregnancy.

It's still so early that not much has even happened yet. I can't wait for all the little surprises and miracles that will come our way. My priorities have really begun to shift and in some ways I really believe my whole way of thinking has changed. I know I might complain in here about being emotional, tired, and nauseous, but all of that doesn't change the fact that all of this is so magical to me.

Jeff & I started going to a newborn care class on Monday. The first class wasn't all that impressive but she promised they get better. I'm so excited to learn and grow with Jeff & our new family. As much as I can't wait to meet our little baby, I want to make sure I enjoy the pregnancy!

A Little Blood

I think I had my first freak out this weekend. On Saturday night I noticed a small amount of blood when I was wiping. I got really scared because I had really bad cramps all day so I called the doctor and of course they told me I shouldn't worry. They said that a lot of cramping mixed with a lot of blood could be a miscarriage but it didn't sound like that to her. She said to just take it easy. Luckily, I had a normal appointment already scheduled for today at 11:30 so I can make sure everything is ok then with an ultrasound. Everything makes me so nervous especially since it's so early and we haven't even heard a heartbeat yet. I think I just need to relax a little bit though!

Sleep Trouble

My biggest complaint lately is that I cannot sleep. I'm used to sleeping on my back but I can't sleep on my back anymore, I have to sleep on my left side. Jeff got me a body pillow which helps a little with sleeping on my side, but not much. In addition to not being able to get comfortable, every little sound or light keeps me awake. It's like all of a sudden I need a completely quiet & dark room to sleep in when I've never needed that before. Last night was awful... let me explain. We got into bed at 8:30, talked until 10, and I drifted off to sleep around 10:30. I slept well until 2AM when I woke up and could not get back to sleep. I watched the clock until 4AM and then I went upstairs to the other bed. The dog was sleeping with us in the bed downstairs and was being very annoying so I thought that was keeping me up.

Then I layed awake upstairs until 4:30AM when Jeff came up and asked me if I was alright. He thought I just got up to go to the bathroom and was puzzled when I didn't come back. He sat up with me for a little while and asked me if there was anything I needed. At this point since I'd been up so long I was getting hungry/nauseous. He went down and got me some saltine crackers and a bottle of water. He talked to me while I ate and when I was done I told him to go back downstairs to bed so maybe I could get some sleep. I eventually fell asleep again but I don't know what time it was and when my alarm clock went off this morning for work I felt like absolute crap.

I should be getting MORE sleep now that I''m pregnant but I'm getting much less. Not all nights are as bad as this one but I wake up at least twice a night and can't sleep straight through the night anymore. It's so frustrating because it makes me so tired and extra cranky all the time!

Regular Update

Trying to have a successful pregnancy is difficult with the added stress my family is putting on me, but I'm sure I can make it. Little things I've been noticing are, it feels weird to sneeze, and the baby doesn't like it when I cry! When I sneeze I get this added little "kick" in my stomach which almost sounds ridiculous considering I'm only 6 1/2 weeks pregnant, but it's definitely different. I also feel differently when I cry. All the emotions seem so much more intense and it's like I can feel the sadness from within. It's definitely a new feeling that will take some getting used to. The nausea has been getting worse, but only when I let myself get hungry. Jeff has been good about bring snacks and water wherever we go. He's always making sure I have balanced meals and never lets me skip anything. He's been unbelievable through everything.

Jeff Bank Story

I'm blogging about this because I want to remember it. I'm not even 6 weeks pregnant and Jeff went to the bank to start a savings bond for the baby. I didn't go with him and didn't even know he was going. Later he told me how excited he was and how he talked to all the women at the bank about the baby. They had the account all ready to go and asked for the baby's ss#, and Jeff was confused because the baby is not even born yet! They told him he couldn't open the account with the baby's ss# and then he said to me, "the baby has a spleen, why can't it have a bank account?" haha, so adorable!

First Ultrasound!

We went for our first ultrasound yesterday! We finally picked a doctor and we were there for 2 hours asking questions. When we first got there they told me that I had to pay my copay and they didn't accept credit card which was all we had with us so I started crying at the front desk! It was so crazy! I can't believe how emotional I am lately. Absolutely everything makes me cry. Everyone was really nice about it though and Jeff ran next door to the ATM to get the $20 and he was back before I even realized he was gone.

I'm glad I have him to take control of things right now... big and little, because for some reason I just can't handle things well. It's crazy to me that I would cry over not having $20 when there was an ATM in the Quick Check next door. I guess I'm just lucky that I have Jeff, because I'd be sobbing in the corner all the time if it wasn't for him!

After we were done at the appointment we had to go to the front desk and everyone asked to see the ultrasound picture. Then Jeff said, "The baby already looks black," which made everyone in the room laugh! It's good to have his wonderful sense of humor around, especially right now :)

Also, yesterday the doctor advised that I stop taking ultimate aloe every morning. I started taking it before I even knew I was pregnant just to settle my normally upset stomach. I guess it was doing a good job because I felt very sick this morning. I can deal with feeling sick as long as it's best for the baby though. He didn't say it was proven bad he said that he doesn't recommend anything that hasn't been proven safe for pregnant women. So I'm a little nauseous today and I didn't sleep great last night but I will survive, because in 8 short months we will have a new baby and it will all be worth it!

We're Pregnant!

I took a home pregnancy test on Friday (2/6) and it was positive. I went to a pregnancy center on the following Monday (2/9) and they confirmed it! I am about 5 weeks! I almost had a hard time believing it because I didn't think I felt pregnant. I have been drinking a lot more and peeing a LOT more, but didn't notice much else.

Since I found out I feel like I've been crying non stop, mostly because I'm so happy! Sometimes I cry for no reason at all, it's so confusing. Other then the emotional stuff I have noticed I get nauseous when I don't eat something every 4 hours or when I try to use my abs. I've started to feel like I can't use my abs even though it's so early in the pregnancy! I don't know why I feel like this, and I guess it's weird, but I guess I feel like I'm hurting the baby if I use my stomach muscles.

I got prenatal vitamins from walgreens on Monday and have been taking those every morning. They don't seem to make me sick which is good. Once I find a doctor hopefully I can find out if I should be on better ones, the problem is finding a doctor! I printed out a list of over 100 names so now I need to call around and find one I like!